Four weeks back into school already and it's starting to wear me down... I'm a "senior" now... It sounds so old. Like you're someone important and deserving of respect and all that. Wish I was a freshman.

The past few weekends were only filled with work. Stupid AP Design. Stupid 12 concentrations. asdfghjkhsgdsfkdgjl!@#$%^&*(*^%$#.

*sigh*

I don't wanna go to college. It's tough. It sucks. No free paint or art supplies for you to use. (Well, at Parsons at least...) I don't think I'm gonna apply there... The tuition and the intenseness scares me. Then again, all art schools are loca.

I may not be a professional on his biography or his entire career, but I am knowledgeable of some of the important things he did. Imagine what a life he had. To be such a great influence in the music world. We are indebted to him and his contributions in so many ways..even if we may not realize or see the significance of it all.

May he rest in peace. His spirit will continue to rock the world.

\m/

I actually really really miss school. I was dreading the departure for the longest time. [Mostly because seniors were leaving... even my drummer :'( ]

I'm kinda over it though, right now. It took me more or less one week to stop the whining. Pretty good if ya ask me. I was expecting two weeks.

But I'm getting all lazy now..... I gotta work on college apps and stupid summer reading... My portfolio...and all that crap. :/

Of course, I need motivation, inspiration... but that constant fear that I wouldn't be good enough always nags me. It's always there.

asdfhkdfjd;gl


EDIT:
I think I work better under pressure.
My studio is 13 hours away by plane...my school's art center.

I've recently been trying to take advantage of all the paint and other art supplies down at the art center in my school. I realized that it has all been 'included' in my tuition and fees and etc...so why not use (not stealing cuz my parents paid for it!) as much as I can?

I just love going in there, taking an illustration board from the drawer, and having the freedom to do anything I want. It's like... everything is there for you to use!

I wish I lived down there.




Oh, I'm slacking off in History.. We're starting a paper that's due in May, which everyone MUST complete or else they won't be able to graduate. Talk about intimidating and stressful.
I just wanna paint or somethin.

I'm in Cali right now --- on spring break. I swear I'm so lazy. I'm not doing crap. I'm trying to study for the SATs and ACTs... Yeah. 'Trying'.

I'm kinda looking at colleges now...reluctantly really. -___-

lalalalalala. I've nothing much to say actually.

Y'know, I think I'm in love with Racer X. I mean... 'Viking Kong' is such a siiiick song.




Oh yeah, the other day when I walked into a Guitar Center shop...I felt my knees weakening.



* I'm tempted to get a tablet...